JULY 12, 2025:

Hello, freaks and fiends.

An incredibly slow but sunny morning today. Drinking my coffee, opening mail, and coming back to life.

I hadn't washed my face last night before going to bed so now I've got the melty raccoon eye look that Batman's got out of his suit. Deathhawk is also properly messed. I'm too lazy to fix it.

I dropped by the bookmine recently and acquired Dan Simmons' Hyperion. It's a series that I'd been meaning to start for a while and just haven't. I think it must've been suggested to me five or six years ago. Have any of you read it? It's a sci-fi. If I enjoy the 500 pages I've got then I'll probably chat it up in a future bulletin and buy the rest of the series too.

It's funny because I'd gone to the bookmine in search of a nonfiction of any kind. I stumbled upon some mechanic and electric books that I should have taken photos of because they were from 1917-1930. It was all... really riveting actually. The pages were gorgeously kept and the contents hilariously outdated. But it was a couple book series, and I didn't want to buy all of them... so I bought none in hopes that someone would come and snatch the whole lot as to not separate one from its brethren (and hopefully scan every page for archive).

Aside from that, I didn't really find anything that interested me. Their anthropology section was clearly raided, missing the best books of every author (ones I'd been looking out for, too). Arts section was only large books on artists I'd already studied, so I left the books to people who haven't had the chance to learn about them yet. They had not a single Julia Child cookbook, to my dismay. I'm looking specifically for The Way to Cook, which is not an expensive one but I just haven't gotten around to buying it.

And I... I'll be honest I got lost in the maze of shelves and genuinely could not find a horror section. Their romance section, though, was filled to the brim with those cheesy romances known to capture the hearts of married women and middle schoolers alike, big Fabio types on the front cover with a woman on his arm and all hair flowing in the wind. I thought I'd find something to suit my interests in the classics section but that was pretty bare too. It's summer so I'm sure that students of all kinds had been taking them. I was considering getting Dante's Inferno to accompany my physical copy of Paradise Lost but I decided against it. I didn't really like the versions they had.

There wasn't much in the planes section either. Now, that one was practically empty. It made me wonder if it was a new section or if some plane loving rich person had gone through and tore every book off the shelf. I hadn't seen so much of the actual shelves until I met that section. It upset me only a little. I've been looking for a physical nonfiction to read that isn't John Green's Everything is Tuberculosis, which I've been holding onto for a rainy day.

I guess I'm taking suggestions for Non-Fiction books (to totally not pirate).

All my love,
Clyde.

NOVEMBER 14, 2023:

I woke up earlier and created a Wishlist for things I want. Here is a summary of my earliest hours!

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First, I'll begin by apologizing for my week-long absence. I was getting back into life after... well. I'll explain the past three weeks to you now.

- I went to Clemson, South Carolina and neighboring cities for a week. It was long and taxing for me. I was brewing a case of the flu.

- Then, I was dealing with that flu for about a week. In the meantime I did the code for my entire NEOCITIES site. Took a whopping three days. Was a wonderful journey.

- Then I partied for about two days straight, could've been four if I wasn't careful. Those who know me closely know I can get carried away partying. Got drunk. Crossfaded sometimes. Was quite nice! Then again I had just done that before in SC.

- Then I spent another two days recovering from that entire ordeal. It was wild. It was fun. I enjoyed indulging in being a reckless wreckful mess for a while!

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Now I'll describe my morning! - Cultivating Crops

I had a bit of a debate with someone close to me about the cultivation of corn vs the cultivation of wheat.

I had been advocating for corn, him for wheat. It all began when he said he could stand manning a boat with me and I then told him I could stand owning a farm or cabin + small farm with him. Both are very isolating and require a great deal of trust. It meant we could stand each other. We practically expressed our love for each other's company and our belief in that love. It was great.

Anyway, we asked an AI and the AI fucking shat on me (hello past me from 2025 me, no we don't use ai anymore!). Talked about the efficiency of wheat in water use and hardiness helping with growth in a variety of soil types and climates. Those would help if resources are low at the cabin. Additionally, it has a shorter growing season and that means it could be harvested often. So it requires less time an resources basically.

I then asked about the efficiency of corn in preservation for feeding the potential livestock we would have. We would have chickens so we didn't have to rely on hunting for our protein intake, and we could totally waterglass (preservation technique) those eggs and it would be way easier than having to preserve meats we hunt. Anyway, corn would feed those chickens pretty well I believe. Here's a reminder that I actually haven't looked into this because it is only a hypothetical that I like to daydream about.

We then talked about the benefits of cultivating both and decided that both was good. Also decided both hunting and caring for chickens was good. (mmmmmm yummy tallow) We have yet to theorize on how we would live on the boat.

- Videos

During my entire morning I watched a bit of YouTube and sipped on a nice hot cuppa ofc.

I watched LGR and ANTI-CHEF which are my two favorite channels right now.

LGR is this dude who makes videos on old-tech like this video I watched about a PDA-like device for teens in the 2000's called the Cybiko. It had stuff such as wireless chatrooms, little wireless games, and weird teen meeting profiles. I love his videos.

ANTI-CHEF has been my favorite youtuber for about a year now. I can't remember. He makes videos about his home-chef experience of making recipes in books by famous chefs. My favorite series of his is the Jamie and Julia series where he (Jamie) makes recipes from Julia Child's most well-known books. He makes videos of recipes that nobody talks about and shows a wonderfully casual and novice-friendly cooking atmosphere.

Here's a good video. There really isn't a magnum opus video I could link and there isn't any single one that I watched today. I watch them constantly in the background of my morning while I do literally anything. I pause periodically when I need to pay attention to something someone is telling me or to write important things. ALL of the videos are good. The one I linked is one of them good ones. He makes me laugh. He is so silly.

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TID & BITS
- my birthday is in a week.

- i talked to a friend early in the morning about how Socrates views love. that shit was great. i can't put the entire discussion into this bulletin so here are now... the bits!

[ THEM: "he starts with like the idea that most people think love comes from finding the one person you love and making or raising a child with them to preserve your immortality through their relationship to u

and then he says that tends to be unsatisfactory though, and you learn quickly that humans individually are very temporary, cuz we all die, so u start looking for relationship with multiple people's bodies and try to have intimate romantic and sexual relationships with a lot of people and that also doesnt work"

(of which i replied "BASED")

ME: "i've resorted to.. instead just... trying real hard to deeply understand the individual person i want to be close to. understand the way they think, to the point where i know how they would feel about even small things. how they react to anything, as if i was them. it gives the idea of [socrates' idea of] realm a nod while also allowing room for miscalculations. wiggle room. adaptability."

THEM: "...and that furthermore, we can't stay in the area of ideas, let alone forms, because we'll always be brought down to earth by human desires like eating and sleeping, so reaching for ideas all the time is ALSO not great, because it would neglect the fundamental human experience we all have."

ME: "morals and values are meant to change to best fit living a good life and helping others live good lives or stand their ground if it best fits living a good life and helping others live good lives. they're how you perceive information and how you interact with the world. and if your morals and values make it so the information is badly perceived and you badly interact with those around you... then your morals and values suck! they're like little princes(ses) stuck in their towers but there is no knight to save them! they won't let the knight in!" ]

- another of my friends today said "the way you write just oozes with such pragmatic charm i adore it" and it made me very giddy and blush real hard.

- i want to make julia child's rum brioche strawberry shortcake for thanksgiving but i'm also battling with the idea of making banana bread, pumpkin pie, and deviled eggs too.

- i love talking in the discord server of WackyAlex (of FunHouse Radio)

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oh and here's the wishlist i wrote today. not to ask for things but only so you can view into my mind and what material objects i find important enough to ask for but not important enough to buy for myself.

- Desktop Gaming PC from BestBuy
- Julia Child's "The Way To Cook" Cookbook
- Lev Grossman's "The Magicians" Book Trilogy
- John Darnielle's "Devil House" Book
- "The Pragmatic Programmer" First Edition Book
- Cory Althoff's "The Self-Taught Programmer" Book
- Jon Erickson's "Hacking: The Art of Exploitation" 2nd Edition
- Razer Blackshark V2 Headset
- Panasonic Lumix ZS80 Camera
- Macbook
- Fever-Tree Ginger Beer

NOVEMBER 06, 2023:

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